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a quiet place

Almost exactly two years ago, my sister and I bravely spent a Saturday afternoon at my favorite movie theater watching A Quiet Place. We don’t watch horror movies, so between the monsters on screen and the growing tension in the audience, this was the most terrifying film we had ever experienced. Every scare made us jump, and we barely took a breath until the credits rolled and we could finally exhale. We walked out of the theater into the bright sunshine, shaking the tension out of our tight shoulders and reminding ourselves that we’d left the monsters behind.

Watching the same film today, it feels like the fictional apocalypse is beginning to leak through the screen. We’re trapped indoors by a global pandemic, hunted by an invisible terror. Unable to see the virus that ravages the globe, we cling to the rules we’ve set up and hope that masks and six feet of empty space will keep us safe. Like the son whose fight-or-flight response is triggered by the smallest noise, we’re always a breath away from panic. The relentless tension on screen feels suddenly familiar.

Most terrifying to me, though, is how our response to interactions with other people echoes that of the family in A Quiet Place. When the father and son are walking home and encounter an old man in the woods, they are instantly afraid. They’ve spent months carefully constructing a system that provides a semblance of security, and this man could shatter it. So rather than a comrade who could stand by their side in the face of danger, they see a threat to their hard-won safety. Their outlook is suddenly familiar, as people around the world retreat into their homes and shut out anyone who hasn’t been following their chosen protocols. We don’t know who might be unknowingly carrying the virus we’re all battling, so we fear each other and assume that everyone we encounter is increasing our danger. 

But even in our strange new reality of isolation and anxiety, we find solace in the same places as the family on screen. We are moved by people who sacrifice themselves for the sake of others, willing to put their bodies on the line like the father. We grieve loss together, mourning the sickness and the death that are ravaging our world and, like this family, trying to chart a path forward even as we carry a new pain. We come alongside those who, like the deaf daughter who may not know the danger she’s walking into, face extra risk and need help navigating our altered reality. And we find moments of beauty in the midst of pain, dancing together like the husband and wife who let music drown out their fear for a few beautiful minutes. 

I know that I’m missing the point a little bit, that A Quiet Place is about parenthood, not a global pandemic. I’m aware that I’m overlooking the stellar performances, the incredible use of sound and sign language, the excellent writing and directing, and the moments of terror that are indelibly etched in my memory. But I’m thankful for this film because, at its core, it’s telling a story I need to hear and reminding me of truths that give me an anchor in the midst of this crisis. It teaches me that we need each other, that we all have a part to play in our battle. It reminds me to hold on to the people I care about, to tell them that I love them while I have the chance. And, like all the greatest stories, it reassures me that danger has an end. That there is hope. That monsters can be defeated.

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lady bird

On the surface, I have almost nothing in common with Christine ‘Lady Bird’ McPherson. Our home towns, our parents’ vocations, our interests–few of our experiences overlap. But despite our differences, I immediately connect with the struggles and feelings Lady Bird encounters. Greta Gerwig chooses to limit her field of vision in this poignant film, allowing us to discover the intimate details of one situation and to know Christine deeply. By narrowing her focus in this way, Gerwig is able to tap into universal experiences that cross boundaries of place or social class, to explore the longings and dreams that characterize human experience wherever we are.

This shouldn’t be surprising, but I’m realizing as I write that many of my favorite films see the world the way I do: through the lens of emotion. I’m delighted when others manage to capture this on screen, and especially when they can inspire emotion in the audience as well as the characters. Greta Gerwig does this magnificently. It may help that she’s telling the story of a high school senior, a young woman going through big transitions at an always-emotional time of life. But her film does not limit itself to depicting teenage angst. The opening car ride, as Christine and her mom conclude a college visit, captures a wide range of feelings in just a few minutes: melancholy tears provoked by the end of The Grapes of Wrath, frustration from both mother and daughter as they struggle to communicate, and an instant flash of anger that leads Christine to roll out of their moving car. And emotion follows us throughout the rest of the film, always simmering just under the surface, ready to be released at the slightest trigger.

While it overflows with feeling, the events of Lady Bird may seem insignificant; I showed the movie to one of my sisters, who didn’t like it because “nothing happened.” However, Gerwig seems to hold the same philosophy as the nun who asks Christine, “Don’t you think maybe they are the same thing? Love and attention?” As she does in Little Women, Gerwig pays attention to the intimate moments that make up her characters’ lives–and in doing so, demonstrates her love for each of them. She notices the boys’ names Christine writes on her bedroom wall, the gifts her mom brings to coworkers, and the way an affirmation makes Julie light up. Her characters are complicated and messy, and through her eyes we learn to see how the “insignificant” moments of their lives add up to define each person. By paying attention to the small details others might overlook, Gerwig elevates their importance and makes them meaningful.

When we first meet her, Lady Bird has not developed this skill: she doesn’t know many people well, unable to see past the facade they present to the world. She doesn’t see her parents’ struggles, fails to recognize Julie’s loneliness, and falls in love with the fantasies she’s constructed about two different boys–only to be disappointed when their reality doesn’t match her expectations. Christine doesn’t even really know herself; she knows what kind of person she wants to be, but not where her strengths and interests might actually flourish. She tries on identities, successively defining herself as a theater kid or a rebel or a girlfriend as she searches for the place where she fits. Through this process, though, she slowly learns about herself and begins to celebrate her family and her hometown as important parts of her identity. She reclaims the name her parents gave her, choosing to introduce herself to a new acquaintance as Christine instead of as Lady Bird.

Christine’s growth is captured in miniature on a Sunday morning early in her freshman year, as she encounters again the religion she left behind. In her Catholic high school, the rituals of the church were something to be tolerated or laughed at. Lady Bird snacked on communion wafers with Julie, made fun of a nun by decorating her car as if she were just married to Jesus, and promptly ignored the instruction to leave “six inches for the Holy Spirit” between her and a dance partner. In her first weeks at college, though, Christine’s perspective starts to change. Walking home hungover, the Sunday morning church bells are suddenly appealing. She climbs the stairs to the balcony of a beautiful church building, finding her way upwards in a physical reflection of the journey of transformation she is undergoing. As she emerges into the sanctuary, her eyes are opened. Rather than a scripture reading grudgingly performed by a sullen high-schooler, she is surrounded by stunning choral music. She glimpses the profound beauty of the rituals on display, able to sense the meaning in the traditions. On this morning, at least, the church becomes a refuge, a haven in the midst of uncertainty. And as Christine continues to explore her identity, she is anchored by the familiar things, like religion, that she once held in contempt. With that foundation established, she finds her footing.